You spend so much of your life doing what you think needs to be done in order to be successful. 10 years of elementary school. 4 years of high-school. And for me, 4 years undergrad, 2 years master. 20 years of my life spent learning, to be applied to 30+ more years of working. But then I find myself questioning if I was put on this earth to sit in a classroom, sit in an office, sit behind a computer screen and call that “living”.
To me there is more then one way of measuring success. What good is a life of work if there is no happiness attached to it? I was only given one life. Just one. And I can’t help but feel like there is something more to all of this.
But in today’s society, you have to have an education. You have to have a job, a full career, in order to reach accomplishments in other aspects of life such as supporting a family, having a good home and being able to travel the world.
So do what needs to be done, but don’t lose yourself along the way. Focus on the bigger picture. What does success truly mean to you? What to you is a life worth lived? You can go any direction that you please, but just remember that it is happiness that will truly give it meaning.
If God means for it to be, it will be. Maybe not right now, maybe in the future, maybe never. He closes doors so better ones can open. He has the ultimate plan for you, and while trying to figure it out hurts while on the path to discovery, in the end all the tears and heartbreaks are worth it. Just remember that.
Asketh - Anonymous
That was beautiful and inspiring.. Thank you <3
So tonight, I came to some realizations, and I felt so strongly about them that I decided I needed to write about them. Sometimes writing about something that is bothering us, allows us to come to some form of closure. We can say that we’ve thought about it, embraced it, and we can now work on moving past it… on to the next idea.
Tonight was one of those nights where my head was filled with a million thoughts. A million what ifs. Questioning why my recent breakup happened.. wondering what went wrong… why he was acting like it was so easy for him to just walk away. I felt like I just needed an answer. I just needed to make sense of why something so amazing ended with such little reasoning.
I am that girl, that will pity text. When I feel upset and just want to understand every single last detail, I will text him, telling him how I feel, begging for reinsurance… wanting to hear that this was not easy for him, or that I was a great girlfriend, that I did mean a lot to him, or even that he still loves me. And I do this often, every time I come up with a new perspective or worry, its as though I have to present it to him so that I can make sense of it.
But then tonight I talked to my don, who is amazing at listening and is great with providing me with new perspectives. Basically, she just told me that… I might never get the answers I’m looking for… and that its just going to hurt me every time I become disappointed when I don’t hear what I wanted to. That I would constantly be causing myself pain, if I looked to him for comfort, or to make sense of things, when he had nothing more to offer. That unfortunately, it’s at the point where it doesn’t matter anymore as to WHY it happened. It did happen… and I know now I can’t change it. Once you realize that his mind is made up and you cant fix it any longer, it becomes a matter of moving past it, not analyzing it.
And what she said to me that helped me the most was “don’t leave him with negative memories. Don’t let him learn to resent you. By you sending him whining , pity texts every day, eventually he will become annoyed and roll his eyes every time your name pops up on the screen. Let him remember what you meant to him, that you were good to him.” Now that I realize his mind is made up, and there’s no changing it, begging for reassurance, and looking for sympathy from him… is only going to leave me looking like a mess.
Let him remember you at your best.
SINCE WHEN ARE YOU BACK ON TUMBLR
Asketh - withbliss
Since a week ago! Tumblr is like a dairy… with pictures, that needs to be opened every now and then.